BY SUCHITRA INAMDAR Smita, a brilliant software engineer, had some strange experiences while driving in New Jersey. She knew that she was being followed and sometimes
BY SUCHITRA INAMDAR
Smita, a brilliant software engineer, had some strange experiences while driving in New Jersey. She knew that she was being followed and sometimes there were more than one vehicles following her. She mustered her courage. She wanted to call the police but she suspected that her phone was also being tapped. She went through sweating, palpitation and a dry throat. The half consumed cola in her bag shouted out loud “Do not trust me”. As soon as she reached home, she used to lock herself up, curtains drawn, lights turned out. She went through sleeplessness for 3 days. She was brilliant at work, quiet and delivered results. So though colleagues noticed that she didn’t seem alright, they chose to let it pass. On the 4th day, as Smita was driving to her cousin’s place about 100 miles from work, she again saw the vehicles that were following her. But now she also felt that each vehicle had lights that were zoning in and zoning out. She felt that these lights were entering her thought. At one such moment she realized that something about her fear did not add up. She was again sweating and palpitating and the lights became brighter and brighter. That moment she decided that she would keep reminding herself that she needs to concentrate on driving for 50 more miles and then she would be truly safe.
Smita came back to India because in times of terrible economic recession in the USA around 2002, her company got an excuse to relieve her of her duty. She was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. When she came to me, she was stable because of medicines. But complete emptiness, loss of confidence in her abilities and a sense of loss of time while she had episodes broke her down. She said “I feel as if I am constantly in the twilight between reality and unreality”. In the first session, when she narrated her experiences to me I told her, “You know, I am really interested in the 50 miles travel that you achieved. How did you know it was you who needed help?” Her eyes full of consternation and she said, “something deep inside told me that I need help and whatever it is, I can fight it. My brain HAS TO work when I need it the most”.
Helping Smita understand schizophrenia and helping her to find her life back was a rewarding journey. I will always remember this experience.
Most schizophrenia patients, however, are nowhere close to the prognosis that this case achieved. If we look at this narration carefully, the aspects that worked in Smita’s favour were – She was truly brilliant, she loved life, she was good with her life skills, she trusted at least some persons in her life completely (E.g. her cousin), she had a strong inner voice and she had money to fund her own treatment. In addition to that, Schizophrenia struck her in her late twenties. That means her personality was formed, she already had the experience of successfully moulding her environment and achieving malleability.
Managing schizophrenia is truly a challenge across countries and across cultures. In India, what should be the focus while treating schizophrenia? The focus should be manifold. My excellent teachers and lots and lots of patients and clients throughout my 19 years of practice taught me a few rules.
*Names of clients/patients are changed to maintain confidentiality in all the articles published by APARA
4 Comments
This is an amazing blog about a disorder about which novices are all confused as to how to deal with. We have all read many articles about psycho pharmacotherapy, but when it comes to psycho social interventions, we still go through confusing finding. These short advices seem important, culturally rooted and relevant. Thank you for sharing your experience. Keep up the good work 🙂
Very well written. I have a friend who needs this kind of support. I will ask him to get in touch with you. Now I am hopeful that he will also be able to live his life one day.
Thank you.
Nice Article!
Liked the way you focussed on her positives. ” You know, i am really interested in the 50 miles travel you achieved. How did you know it was you who needed help?